Dream Catalog

Index to all my dreams

Date Name Series/Themes Characters, Symbols and Feelings (click keywords for related dreams)

11/15/24 Tim Dying snow, path, Darchelle, Tim, Subaru

11/14/24 Wildcat Mountain Dying Wildcat, snow, skiing, chairlift, John, Darchelle, brown

06/28/24 Susan's Broccoli Susan Auburn house, living room, garden, broccoli, sleeping bag, ALS

05/01/24 Clay House Agency God clay, house, pit, Daniel, burning, David, pokeweed, Alicia, Ricardo, clear water, trout

04/03/24 Turtle and Rat Integration rat, turtle, blanket, Darchelle, urinating, killing

09/08/23 Snowshoe Hare Dying Agency Snowshoe Hare, Jackson, bathroom, Darchelle, statue, brown, young man, party, Ali, sadness, Diana

08/02/23 Bicycling to a Meeting God bicycle, Darchelle, snow, parking garage, 70s car, plate of food, conference room, prayer, Bill Busby, job offer

04/23/23 Cooking Tofu Darchelle preparing food, deck pan, duck breasts, tofu, bread dough , spilling, court, tomatoes, store, snow

04/20/23 Short-eared Owls none bicycle, terrace, Short-eared Owls, camera, photographing birds, crowd of people, backpack, baby owls, Iguana

04/17/23 Buying Avocados ALS Disability warehouse store, avocados, credit card, backpack, heavy, darkness, snow, ice, slipping, snowballs, parking garage, parking ticket, rings of light

04/14/23 White-throated Sparrow Dying Darchelle, White-throated Sparrow, snow, hiking, snowballs, avalanche

04/07/23 Missing my Ride Home Dying John, Ali, restaurant, fast food burger, knapsack, Jackson, missing a ride, parking garage, darkness, Jeff Z

03/20/23 Packing for a trip Darchelle suitcase, packing, piano bench, machine gun, bus ticket, child's bicycle, woman, blue dress, breasts, berries, Donna

03/12/23 Storm over a Produce Store ALS produce, store, boxes, green beans, bananas, storm, lightning, shed, thieves, little girl, short woman, bathroom, Indian man, Ali, cookie

03/08/23 Frustration ALS Disability Loss Auburn, gardening, box truck, produce, zucchini, anger, frustration, journaling

02/27/23 Making Coffee in Jackson Darchelle Integration Ali, sleeping, Jackson, friends, Thanksgiving, kitchen, coffee, fire, Rob Pepper, Sarah

02/19/23 Padded Rooms Dying motel, padded wall, office desk, Darchelle, Alicia, breast, shame, black dress, light blue

02/18/23 Where to Sleep Dying God summer camp, poop, shame, Kleenex, plastic container, red Subaru, night, blinds, going to bed, dog

02/07/23 On a Plane Integration Plane flight, Jackson, Susan, David, sleeping, garden, Daniel, guacamole

02/02/23 Peeing on Pink Carpet Integration God peeing, tight passage, pink carpet, boxes, church, proselytizing, friend

01/08/23 Flies Memory Attic, sex, Jeana, breast, Donna, Stacy, flies, crib, Liam

01/08/23 Birds in the House Agency Susan Auburn house, living room, blackbirds, crow, black cat, brown cat, Jackson, killing

12/27/22 Confusion in Church God Darchelle church, elder, Susan, Jeana, olive-green dress

12/25/22 Peeing Twice Agency peeing, pink carpet, stairs, Dad, parakeets, black cat

12/25/22 Jesus returns God Jesus, toy trains, gratitude

12/13/22 Parking Garage Darchelle parking garage, red Subaru, Susan's van, slipping, stairs

12/11/22 In the Intervale Dying Jackson, Sarah, snow, skiing, the Intervale, gates, cows, tumbleweeds, woman, dark blue, Frisbee, Silas, Daniel, David, salmon

11/29/22 Two Houses God Integration Auburn house, plywood, Tim, blue

10/07/22 Checking into a hotel Disability Integration hotel lobby, checking in, crowd, black man, nipples, young woman, kindness, helping, bedding, buffet, soup

10/07/22 Selfie with my phone Darchelle cell phone, selfie, Darchelle, driving, iron pipe, snow, water, flood, Daniel, David, coffee table, bird notes

09/13/22 Drowning hummingbirds Dying Dad, Daniel, snow, loafers, mud, water, Rufous Hummingbird, guitar store, Darchelle

09/05/22 Hitchhiker / Tank Lakes ALS driving, hitchhiker, young woman, wheelchair, ice, hiking, binoculars case, running, darkness, Jackson

08/31/22 Computer chips to Portland Work computer chips, Monkeyman fleece, Daniel, Portland, barefoot, mud, water

08/27/22 Bagging the Cat Agency Susan Auburn house, black cat, killing, grocery bag, Susan, Christmas tree

08/26/22 Pelagic Van Loss blue van, old mattress, pelagic trip, birding, disappointment

08/23/22 Victorian iguanas God Overcoming Victorian house, Bellcast roof, stone steps, light, china cabinet, dragon (iguanas), brown, green, burned porch, Richard

08/22/22 Light at the end of a tunnel Integration river, mud, snow, darkness, light, boys, spears, helicopter, home

08/18/22 Getting to Wildcat Integration Jackson, snow, skiing, Wildcat, Susan, hiking, Marshall Bain

08/16/22 In front of the Eagle God Overcoming PO boxes, sprayed with hose, anger, driving, climbing, running, Susan

08/06/22 Mocha for Jeana Darchelle Jeana Reines, mocha, love

07/09/22 Running in snow Dying Memory Jackson, Darchelle, blueberries, barefoot, running, snow

06/11/22 Feeding mice to owls Integration darkness, living room, mice, raspberries, killing, rat, blood, Mazie, blue sponge, owl, rabbit

06/01/22 Swimming with a salmon Darchelle Idealism swimming, river, salmon, brown, boxfish, woman, running, exhibition hall, Richard

05/24/22 Going swimming ALS breasts, terrace, insulated pants, belongings, wallet, drivers license, water, Covid, swimming, waves

04/19/22 Blueberries Loss Mom, bed, massage, Ali, John, blueberries, anxiety

04/14/22 In church God church, Darchelle, green, brown, stairway, pink, running faucet, Alicia

04/13/22 Angry at Daniel Loss? garden, Daniel, David, sprayed with hose, anger, mud, Susan

03/29/22 Getting out of a barn Dying barn, climbing, fear, Eric, Jackson

02/24/22 Dragon fish Agency God Susan fishing, trout, game warden, pink, dragon (alligator), man wearing brown

02/15/22 Fishing Idealism fishing, trout, brown, rockfish

02/03/22 Gunpowder tornado Integration Darchelle cabin, gunpowder, dining room table, tornado, smoke

02/02/22 Slaying a dragon God Idealism Integration Jackson, cleaning, Daniel, dragon (Komodo), green, David, blood and water, birding, Sarah, Eric

01/16/22 Snowboarding with Ed Dying snow, snowboarding, Ed, fear

12/25/21 Snowboarding Dying God snow, snowboarding, John and Mom, skiing

08/18/21 Skinny-dipping Agency Disability canoeing, river, waterfalls, Bill Gates, swimming, naked, restaurant, porta potty, cliff, falling rock, black man

08/17/21 Scripture and Prayer Darchelle Darchelle, church, prayer

08/14/21 Crystal Crown God David, darkness, white car, red agate, rock shop, crystals, crown, Paul, pickup truck, crash, baby

08/10/21 Red meat God Darchelle Disability Seattle, dark house, man with headscarf, lights, red meat, David Nichol, pig, diarrhea, bathtub, badger

07/24/21 Missing duffel bag Idealism Loss ALS riding a bus, bus station, Boston, Marblehead, duffel bag, green, garage, ramp, barefoot, grease

07/19/21 Oatmeal-raisin cookies Darchelle black woman, business management, oatmeal-raisin cookies

07/19/21 A red Camaro Agency God red sportscar, Jackson, barn, Sarah, Land Rover, blonde man

04/15/21 Riding a chairlift Disability skiing, snow, chairlift, rescuers, fear

04/10/21 A stinky dead dog Disability God bicycling, uphill, crying woman, dead dog, Susan

12/27/20 Therapy with Bill Barr none cubicles, therapy appointment, Bill Barr

12/24/20 Run and swim Overcoming Work Expedia, running, swimming, sailboat, shells, surf, flood

12/20/20 Barack Obama at church God Memory Integration breasts, agate, pegmatite, church, presentation, Barack Obama, green, doghouse, tight passage, ice, sliding

12/15/20 New Job Darchelle Memory new job, chemical plant, boss, desk, dust, boxes of stuff, woman in red, Sarah, old letters, Doug Reusch

12/14/20 Hiking with losses Dying Loss Susan's van, semi truck, mountains, cheese, hiking, ladder, wheelbarrow, photographing birds, Sarah, Ben, garden, thistles, stinging nettles

12/12/20 Fishing Tales Memory fishing, lake, salmon, crossing a stream, river, trout, measuring, tent, bedding, Daniel, light , light blue, motorcyclist, wheelie, fir branches

12/11/20 Waiting Room Dying Growing-up highway, snow, semi truck, woodstove, waiting room, David, Roger, backpack, pen, ticket, ship

12/07/20 Area 58 Agency Susan running, motel, Carol Price, thyme, semi truck, downhill, Susan, Subaru, steering wheel, trying to stop, beauty bark, 58

11/30/20 Pony ride Agency Darchelle motel room, bed, knapsack, sunglasses, Alicia, payment, pony, yellow rope, man wearing brown, raccoon, children, woodpecker

11/26/20 Carrying rose quartz Agency Dying darkness, snow, suitcase, rose quartz, pink, swan figurine, college campus, carved eagle, Rose-breasted Grosbeak

11/26/20 Missing a flight Dying airport, suitcase, knapsack, pink, neonatal unit, crying woman, airport gates, 20, missed flight

11/19/20 Classroom 5 Growing-up school, brick wall, toy car, class schedule, light blue, administrator, classroom, old woman, bruise, break room, black woman, Violet, 5

11/10/20 Two Brians God Mountain Plover, dormitory, Daniel, assertiveness, Susan, cereal, refrigerator, tortilla chips

11/05/20 Catching a plate God white plate, Gibson Hall, miracle, tape measure, Susan, Lee V, refrigerator, milkman, KK, Violet

8/15/20 Preparing to hang Dying David, Mom, rope noose, cupboards, horror

8/15/20 A spider bite God snow, ice, crucifix, crossing a stream, ticket, spider, jaws

6/01/20 With my girlfriend Dying stairway, girlfriend, breasts, lesbian couple, hors d'oeuvres, young man, red hair

6/01/20 Bicycling to Jackson Dying bicycling, Jackson, voting, toy blocks

6/01/20 Naked in a bank Disability naked, penis, bank lobby

4/26/20 Playing with a dog God Dying meadow, woods, springtime, photography, aspens, dog, carnival ride, lighted tunnel, fear

4/24/20 Hosting Mike Adair Dying Darchelle, in bed, Jackson house, Mike Adair, brown suit, ceramic, shower

4/15/20 Social distancing Dying dead houseplants, black woman, driving car backwards, runners, darkness, snow, Fran Cunningham, Jackson

3/22/20 Traveling in a Hummer Darchelle God Integration Young women, Darchelle, Ali, Roger, man in blue, motel, Hummer, traveling, African birds, rain, dusk

3/06/20 Angry at a little girl none Little girl, Mom, Daniel, van, anger

2/20/20 Burning strangers Growing-up Three strangers, three sticks, fire, killing people, old blanket, Darchelle, homeowner

1/31/20 Crashing a roadblock Susan Daniel, driving, snow, woman in blue, roadblock, water tank, anger

12/15/19 Tsunami Susan Tsunami, surf, driving, darkness, snow, fear

12/12/19 Catching a rat Integration Rat, Mom, Jackson house, killing a rat, clear liquid

11/28/19 Opossum on a leash God Growing-up Susan Daniel, driving, Jackson, opossum, riding a pony, carpeted burrow

11/05/19 Looking for breakfast Growing-up David, rain, motel, helicopters, elegant woman, parking lot, breakfast, mosquitoes

11/04/19 Bobcat God Integration Bobcat, dogs, Darchelle, throwing stones, sitting women

7/24/19 From Auburn to Jackson God Integration Auburn Academy, dogs, dusk, Ash tree, Jackson, running, snow, early spring, melting, sunlight

3/14/19 Returning to the office God Integration office, Mike Adair, John Farrell, Work

1/03/19 Sending a letter ALS Susan Susan, driving, darkness, letter, flower stamp, glue, David, marathon equipment, boulders in road, melting ice

12/03/18 The organist God Integration organist, piano playing, Jackson house, checkerboard, tennis court, early spring, melting ice

10/06/18 Boarding a bus Dying white school bus, upset woman, warning, tight passage, claustrophobia

9/11/18 Depressed at college Dying in bed, college dorm, darkness, bathrooms, needing to urinate, sadness

9/03/18 Pushing a wreck Disability Darchelle pushing a wrecked car, snow, Darchelle, telemarking tracks

8/05/18 Peeing at summer camp God Growing-up John McLarty, summer camp, cafeteria, needing to urinate, Golden Retriever dog, meat, pancakes, chili, John

5/22/18 Healed ALS God healing, ALS, kitchen, cleaning up

4/05/18 Eating Delia Disability Delia, eating, face

1/13/18 Photographing birds ALS Darchelle bird photography, Darchelle, anger, swearing

1/13/18 No intercourse ALS Darchelle in bed, Darchelle, sex, Jackson house, ocean, flooding

1/13/18 The Giant in the room ALS our dining room, giant man, ball on a string, fighting, needing to urinate, anxiety

1/01/18 Dogs in a sandstone cave God Integration Darchelle, driving, cliff, tunnel, John McLarty, three dogs, dog poop, Dachshund, rain, puddle

11/17/17 Killing a Pit bull Darchelle God Integration birding, pig, Pit bull attack, killing a dog, Buck knife, black running shoes, spring water

9/08/17 Attack dogs at a cookout Agency God Jackson house, three dogs, dog attack, bricks, border patrol, John, Joe Gill, catered dinner, hamburgers

6/21/17 Birding Disability birding, David, birds, Ellen Stepniewski, dead fish, shame

3/23/17 Fake boobs at bedtime Dying going to bed, Darchelle, underwear, woman with fake boobs, river, swimming

3/18/17 Earthquake with friends ALS green meadow, earthquake, John Farrell, affirmation

3/09/17 Kayak and snowboard Disability kayak, baby, waterfall, snow, snowboard, difficult snowboard run, difficulty

2/09/17 Claire by the lake Dying God Darchelle Claire, lake, waves, flooding, coffee mug, downstairs, cards, food scraps, black olives

2/02/17 Washing my hands God Leslie Caza, Jackson house, washing hands, putty, gray slime, party, Darchelle

11/25/16 Programming with cats Dying Loss Integration programming, impossible task, cafeteria, gray cats, earthquake, tilting room

8/19/16 Walking home ALS God Jackson, knocking on doors, prayer, crazy woman, trapped horse, Darchelle, snow, frost

7/23/16 People in church God Growing-up church, hot chocolate mug, people in pews, beige panels, darkness

7/23/16 Liberating an owl Agency God room full of boxes, Daniel, starving owl, cat, contractors, wearing underwear , rototilled yard, darkness

5/13/16 Cycling accident Darchelle Susan injured cyclist, Susan, driving, elegant woman, convertible, bare hilltop, canopies, woods in spring

5/02/16 Room full of stuff Integration Susan Susan, marathon registration, storage unit, room full of stuff, sadness

5/01/16 Cleaning out the carport Susan carport, room full of stuff, parking the car, Daniel, woodem beam, red Subaru, tar, washing hands, pink hand cleaner

4/20/16 Disturbed by a dog God John McLarty, Golden Retriever dog, in bed, motel lobby, anger

3/31/16 Baptized by John Darchelle John McLarty, baptism, white shorts, two women, cool water

3/07/16 Defending my wife Darchelle picnic, Darchelle, sex, red Subaru, two men, family, tools, gratitude

2/19/16 Fighting off a dictator ALS dictator, two officials, arms, anger, spade

2/02/16 Peeing kitten ALS Susan, kitten, storage tubs, urinating, anger, hiking boot

2/01/16 Walking to a Mexican market Growing-up Daniel, mobile home, tennis court, open fly, sadness, kids, Kleenex, market, Mexican women, street preacher, dragon (Komodo), ALS

12/11/15 Doused with manure water ALS Susan country road, school buses, grass clippings, manure, sweeping, sprinkler

11/05/15 Robbing a covered wagon ALS Integration God covered wagon, shooting, lawman, blue suit, bullets, doors, young man, green, Chiclets

10/25/15 Bears do that Susan mountain road, school bus, bear, food scraps, Joe Gill, hallway

10/18/15 Setting a Subaru on fire ALS Dying Darchelle Subaru, driving, raspberries, Doug Reusch, homeowner, wheelbarrow, newspapers, fire, engine

10/07/15 About to fall ALS cable crossing, Nelson Bellchambers, hanging by my arms, fear

10/02/15 Parking in a ditch ALS Darchelle Subaru, snow, Darchelle, photography, driving car backwards, ditch, darkness, fear

9/26/15 Tilting house ALS Jackson house, tilting room, kitchen, cabinet doors

6/05/15 Flying Susan swimming, milk, flying, Ali, Donna, women, upstairs

4/26/15 Uphill with Darchelle ALS Darchelle Darchelle, driving, uphill, semi truck, tame bird

4/26/15 Getting through a mudflow Overcoming David, driving, snow, kayakers, mudflow, ditch

4/04/15 Homes of death Dying David, camping, rockhunting, ceramic, turtle, flooding, chaise-lounges, spiders, fear

4/01/15 Young man with a gun God Growing-up Agency young man, gun, Daniel, upstairs, money, police, statue

3/30/15 Controlled descent Overcoming red pickup, driving, downhill, braking

3/30/15 Setting a bird free Agency pink bird, cage, freedom, living houseplants

3/01/15 Snowboarding accident Growing-up Susan Marc Rossi, snowboarding, crash, unstable stairway, fear, helmet, decapitated, kids

2/26/15 Waiting to pee God Growing-up? Adventist, needing to urinate, Asian fast food, bathroom, waiting, shame, church leaders, black PVC pipe, forest, stream

2/09/15 Yellowjackets and a possum God Susan garden, David Nichol, yellowjackets, gate, opossum, cat, friends, stomping, killing, gray slime

2/08/15 Trapped in a maze God expedition, Susan, mountains, lake, flood, walls, trapped, Coke machine, hole, tunnel, reading

1/13/15 Beans and peeing ALS? field, needing to urinate, beans, Monica

12/19/14 Dumping kitty litter Susan thin man, camping trailer, kitty litter, cat poop, Susan, ruined building, dry weeds, birds, injured bird, horror

12/15/14 Reclaiming a book Overcoming Agency Alpental, elk, moose, two men, book, wall, jumping

12/07/14 Ripped up by the roots Dying David, garden, stake, blue morning glory, anger, glass beer mug

10/09/14 Trapped on an amusement park ride Dying Amusement park ride, ride driver, trapped

09/15/14 Stepping in my urine Susan Susan, the boys, playing, urine, shame

09/11/14 Two men in a play Susan A play, two men, debating, library, dark blue suit, Susan, audience

08/21/14 Returning chalk to a farm Susan Susan, farmyard, chalk, icy lane, farmer, tractor, barbed wire, dry weeds, barn

07/30/14 Dying trout Dying Susan, David, trout, salmon, game warden, dark blue clothing

05/28/14 Putting the owner to bed Dying basement, downstairs, bed, turning off lights

05/28/14 Harassed by two men Dying two men, shoulders, brightly-lit house, basement, downstairs

05/27/14 Finishing a painting Integration painting, mountains, impossible task, warped frame

05/15/14 Trying to fly Integration tall building, Susan, flying, impossible task

05/11/14 Chased into a museum Dying dusk, red sports car, two men, museum, golden light, middle-aged man, downstairs, darkness

05/02/14 Stranded on a bridge ALS running, river, bridge, immobile, tilting, cable car, alone

05/02/14 Snowplow in Mom's garden Dying Jackson house, snow, snowplow, pickup truck, Mom's garden, alone, sadness

04/07/14 Sour Persimmons Susan Agency wall, falling, pickup truck, persimmon tree, persimmons, vegetarian meals, man

03/07/14 Two dead men in a tent Integration driving, Daniel, mountain, tent, two men, snow, VW beetle, hiking, rock-hunting

01/30/14 Dismantled living space ALS dismantled, rooms, brightly-lit kitchen, Turkish food, needing to urinate

11/24/13 Running into ALS ALS Agency running, trail race, mica, stream, woman running, blue spring water, cliff, boardwalk, short fat boy, broken treetop, table knives, empty house, darkness

11/06/13 Rolling a tire Agency Central Park, lunch, orange, Diana, tire, rolling, man in black, skateboarding, fat boy, bicycle, death, fear

10/04/13 DNF in a race Susan running, Susan, sweeper, lost, resignation

03/03/13 Falling off a cliff Agency running, Jackson, cliff, fence, cedars, road shoulder, footholds, wood beams, falling

Older dreams

Date Name (link) Series Characters/Symbols/Themes

07/15/11 Puss and prey Susan Puss, wren, woodchuck, killed, Auburn house

08/20/10 Rolling downhill Agency driving, VW beetle, Susan, hardwood forest, woods road, cable, long-tailed bird, downhill, brake failure

01/30/10 Ride to nowhere Work catching a ride, VW beetle, two men, fear, old house

10/08/08 Beating Jesus God beating, Jesus, hammer, flash drive

11/17/07 Dad hugs me Integration? waiting room, Sarah, Eric, Doug R, Monte P, marathon, Dad, made whole, hugging, Susan, duffel bag

04/04/03 No way back home Loss party, Marblehead, John and Mom, snow, barefoot, darkness

1986? Encounter with Jesus God Jesus, love