Brian's Journal - A Dream Return

Buying Avocados (04/17/2023)
The dream:
I have returned to the vegetable bin in a large and rather empty-feeling store to select a few additional vegetables, perhaps because I have a coupon for a discount on them. Among the several vegetables I select are two very large ripe avocados. Their rough green and black skin is slightly pitted in a few places causing me to wonder if they are a little overripe, but I put them in my basket anyhow.
Over at the checkout counter I pull out my credit card and a handful of other papers. After I have paid for the produce I pack it, along with the papers, into the top of a large dark green internal frame backpack. When I attempt to lift the pack onto my back it is too heavy so I rest it on the edge of a folding table and slip my shoulders between the straps, but even then I stagger and almost fall when I start to walk away with it. I keep from falling by leaning against another folding table which to my relief does not collapse from the weight. I would hate to have fallen and caused a scene.
When I leave the store it is dark outside and the road is covered with snow on top of old rutted ice. I need to walk a short distance on the road then up a small hill to get to my car but the snow-covered ice is very slippery and twice I almost fall under the weight of the backpack. Fortunately both times I am able to recover my balance. When I reach the hill I step off the road onto a snow-covered sidewalk which turns out to offer good footing. I am concerned that my legs may not be strong enough to make it up the hill but I do not have any difficulty with it.
As I approached the door to the parking garage someone throws snowballs down at me from the roof, maybe three floors up. I cannot avoid all of them so I pull my hood over my head and crouch down until I can get through the door. A couple of snowballs hit me but they are soft and do no harm.
Inside I find that my car, a small four-door sedan, is blocked by another vehicle parked directly in front of it so the front bumpers are almost touching. Clearly someone is intentionally blocking me from leaving the garage. After I put my bag of groceries in the back seat, I notice that two circles of bright light are shining down onto the roof of my car. One is larger than the other but both are composed of multiple, mostly overlapping, slender rings illuminating the roof of my car like little halos.
Wondering how I will get out of the garage, I see a older man coming over to meet me. He explains that I cannot leave the garage until I pay a fine for not having a parking ticket. The ticket would have cost $11 but with the fine, the total will be $111. I can afford it, and there is not much I can do but pay it.
My interpretation:
When I awoke from this dream it intrigued me because of symbols it shared with several other recent dreams. Selecting and purchasing produce (the avocados), paying with a credit card and other papers and even the light illuminating the top of the car relate this dream to the one a month ago about a storm at a produce stand. The parking garage and carrying a loaded pack recall a dream 10 days ago about missing my ride home. Snow and ice and someone throwing snowballs link this dream to another just three days ago featuring a White-throated Sparrow. Those dreams imply that the subject of this one is probably either ALS or my death.
Other symbols strongly suggest a theme of disability. The avocados, though large and presumably flavorful, are nonetheless flawed. My disability impacts both my activities and my relationships. The pack I carry is so heavy that several times my legs nearly collapse, a direct reference to my anxiety about my legs collapsing during transfers to and from the wheelchair. Once in the garage I am immobilized, prevented from leaving by someone else's decision to impose that limitation on me. The idea that I am specifically targeted is reinforced by the snowballs thrown at me and the rings of light aimed at the roof of my car. The implication is that my disability and the ALS which causes it did not strike me at random but is a condition I was chosen to bear, and as implied by this dream +, among others, about ALS and disability, I am able to bear it.