Brian's Journal - A Dream Return

Padded Rooms (02/19/2023)
The dream:
I am walking down a carpeted hallway with rooms on either side, as in a motel, alone I think though I may be with Darchelle. Through an open door I can see that the walls of the room are entirely covered with padded fabric, as if to prevent the occupant from hurting himself. The fabric is richly colored in hues of blue, green and red, I think. As far as I can see the only furniture in the room is a metal office desk and chair. They are not padded, which leads me to question the purpose of padding the walls.
Turning a corner I see Darchelle through the open door of a room ahead of me and I am about to go into the room when I realize that she is not alone. Her sister Alicia is with her and is getting dressed but is still naked from the waist up. Glimpsing her breast, I turn away but the door of the adjacent room is also open and in that room, another woman whom I do not recognize is also dressing but she is still almost completely naked. Again not wanting to give offense I look away. The woman, now completely dressed in black, leaves the room and walks down the hall away from me.
Returning to the hallway I had first come down, I meet another woman, fully dressed perhaps in light blue, asks me for some kind of help, perhaps for directions, and I attempt to assist her but I don't think I was able to offer her much.
Possible meaning:
I don't know if there was more to this dream than what I was able to recall above. I was not planning to record it because I didn't have much sense of what it was about but the scenes were quite vivid so I changed my mind and wrote it down. Sometimes in so doing, the meaning begins to reveal itself, though in this case perhaps I do not want to know what the dream means. Even though I look away from the naked women, one of whom is my sister-in-law, that does not mean that I do not desire to look at them and I feel some shame about that as I recall the dream, even if I did not feel that shame during the dream.
The black clothing of the second woman suggests that she may be in mourning. The padding of the rooms implies an effort to prevent harm or pain, an effort to mitigate the impact of an occupant hitting the walls, but the presence of the metal office furniture renders that effort futile. Putting those symbols together suggests that the dream may be about the harm I will impose on those close to me when I die. The cold reality is that the pain I leave behind cannot be prevented. Perhaps that is the real reason for my shame.
I associate the colors of the padded fabric with the beauty of nature, perhaps a reference to the the importance Darchelle and I have always attached to being out in the natural world together, initially through running and hiking and now through birdwatching. The padding of that fabric also suggests that our activities in the natural world help us deal with (or avoid dealing with) the pain of my impending death.