I'm standing at the foot of one of two metal frame beds in a downstairs bedroom, which is sparsely furnished like a dormitory room. Another guy has undressed and dropped his clothes at the foot of the bed and I push them out of the way with my foot, feeling slightly disgusted.

Upstairs I am in a very large open room entirely carpeted with pink wool carpet. Pieces of furniture, mostly overstuffed chairs I think, are distributed all around the room as if in a furniture salesroom. My father is sitting crosslegged on the floor some distance away at the top of an open flight of stairs leading down into the bedroom. I suddenly have to urinate so I pee right where I am standing, onto the carpet. I sense my father's disapproval but he does not move or say anything so I finish peeing and walk over to the top of the stairs, edging carefully around one of the chairs near the cutaway opening around the stairway because there is no protective railing.

Downstairs I notice a half-dozen parakeets lined up under the stairs, equally spaced and lying on their backs parallel to the wall. They are blue and white and appear to be dead so I look more carefully and see one move a little. Nearby a black cat is peering under a low platform, perhaps one of the landings of the stairway. I am surprised to realize that I have to urinate again. I think there is a bathroom nearby but but again I just pee where I am standing. My urine spatters on the uneven concrete, adding to one of the puddles already filling one of the low spots on the floor.

In the absence of any clear understanding of the meaning of this dream, I'll focus on the associations. The pink carpet was like the one Susan and I selected for our bedroom in Auburn so by extension probably represents something about my marriage to my ex-wife. My father at the top of the stairs reminds me of a statue of the seated Buddha, immobile and passive, disapproving but without agency. A similar figure appeared in a dream years ago and represented myself in that state. Urinating, on the other hand, is in the dream an act of irresistible agency, an action taken despite possible negative consequences. Urine sometimes spatters on my feet when, with Darchelle's assistance, I lean against the jamb of the car door and urinate while we are out birdwatching together. Exercising my agency regardless of consequences was how I was able to enter into my marriage with Darchelle.
Blue parakeets I associate both with my friend David Nichol and with my son David, both of whom though at different times owned a blue parakeet which met an untimely end. The parakeets may symbolize my own upcoming untimely end.