I am walking on a waterfront promenade paved with large stones (like some city streets in Spain)
when I began chasing, or get chased by, four children who are I think dressed entirely in brown,
like little monks. I follow them into a house and continue to play a sort of tag or hide and seek
with them. The house is a long rambler and the main hallway running the length of the house
is partly obstructed with dead and dying potted trees, as if someone stopped watering them quite a
long time ago.
I sit down on an old sofa in one of the rooms. A black woman is casually sprawled on the floor in
front of me. Her face is open and round, her hair rather short and curly and I notice that she has
a short white goatee on her chin, like Colonel Sanders. Perhaps it is because of the goatee that
someone else in the room is saying to her "I didn't know that you became gay", but I am thinking
that they meant to say "trans" instead of "gay". I need to leave but I'm not sure how to say that
to the others in the room so I just get up and walk away. As I reach the front door at the end of
the hallway I realize I left my backpack behind and I'm somewhat embarrassed as I return to the room
to retrieve it but no one seems to notice. I forget something else and have to return again and
again no one seems to care. I suddenly realize that when I followed the children into the house and
sat in the room with other people I had completely forgotten about social distancing. As I am
opening the door to exit, Ben comes up and I exclaim to him "Man, it's really hard to remember about
this social distancing stuff" and he says something sympathetic in return, then shuts the door
behind me because I have a little trouble getting it to close.
I'm surprised to discover almost a foot of fresh snow on the ground when I step outside. It seems
to be nighttime though I can see okay. One lane of the street has been plowed so I start to walk in
the cleared area but have to jump out of the way when a young man guns his car backwards towards me.
Maybe he yells at me, I'm not sure, then he continues to race his car backwards down the street,
stopping at a house some distance away. I follow the car into his driveway and wade into the snow
as if to detour below the house then, realizing that the road veers up and to the right, cross
through a flower bed onto his driveway. As I do so a rose cane breaks off and sticks to my coat,
then a larger trunk of a small tree does likewise. The mother of the young man looks out of the
house, sees me and yells at her son "Did you do that to him?" referring to the debris sticking to
me. I assure her that I am okay then continue trudging through the snow along a fence which runs
along the road. Discovering that I cannot get through the fence to the road, I backtrack until I
find an opening to get back into the plowed road again.
I had thought that I was in Jackson but I do not recognize my surroundings. Ahead of me I see a
group of runners approaching. Much like my surroundings they appear to be colorless, a sort of
grayish flesh color, but when they get closer I see two Marathon Maniacs among them dressed in
bright scarlet and yellow gear. One is a Main Maniac but I don't recognize him so I don't say
anything to him. The other is being supported by two other runners, one on either side, as he
stumbles along like a soldier wounded in battle. I look for someone familiar and recognize Fran
Cunningham so I ask her what road we are on, and whether it joins up with Route 16 or some other
road I would know. She doesn't seem to want to talk but she does tell me that the name of the road
is Laurelhurst and that it does meet up with 16. As it approaches the intersection, our road
descends a hill covered with rough brown ice and both Fran and I skid down it on our feet but we
don't fall. Across the intersection there is a bus stop so I wait there with a couple of other
people.
Lots of references to death, I think, in this dream, but I don't have a clear sense of a story it
might be trying to tell. The house resembles the ranch house in New Mexico which belonged to
Delia's parents, now deceased. The black woman seems to be a composite of Darchelle (short hair,
African background) and Susan (the Colonel Sanders goatee). The person talking to the black woman
seemed to be a church acquaintance from Auburn when the boys were young. The four children might be
Ben's quadruplets. Disregarding social distancing could prove fatal. The angry young man driving
his car backward would presumably be me; perhaps it is because of him that I twice detour off the
cleared way into the snow. Both snow and nighttime have referred to end-of-life in other dreams.
Fran Cunningham died (was murdered?) within a few years of graduating from high school. The wounded
Maniac is most likely me. through the encounter with the runners, including Maniacs, that I figure
out where I am and presumably, how to get where I want to go.
My best guess is that the dream is about how to die, and learning to live with dying. Leaving the
house probably represents leaving my first marriage through divorce, with echoes of leaving my
second through death. The sudden appearance of snow probably marks my diagnosis of ALS, the
backward driving young man my initial impulse to suicide in response, and returning to the road
after detouring through the snow my re-engaging with life despite losing my future. Although the
setting remains bleak and I remain alone (and no longer able to run), Fran reassures me that I am
not far from home and that I can get there.